& You, I Saw You.

& i am.

[Muhd Farid]
-Wasted Youths.
-Messed Hair.
MERCU Private Sch.
29 April 1989.
Taurus.
Loved Tahirah
hits

& my friends.

ADILIN
AISYAH
ATIKAH
AYIEEN
CLARABELLE
ELISA
FARADELLA
HUIFEN
HUIYI
IVAN
IYLIEE
KAK SHIDA
KAREN
RABIATUL
SAMIRAH
SERENA
SHAZWANI
SHEIKHA
SYAZANA
TAHIRAH
XINROU
ZAFIRAH
ZAKI
ZULAIHA[baby]

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Sunday, July 30, 2006

hey hey...wow...wat a day for me yest..hahha!!it was damn fun uh...kk firstly i didnt went for mendaki uh..coz y??MALAS uh..wahaha!!so yeah...den supposed to meet hui fen to meet someone which we dont noe..and go study after dat...haha!!i was 10mins late uh..yes 10mins not 15mins..to hui fen get ur maths right uh..u was late for 5min wat...so yeah..wahah!!meet her at bedok int. den make our way to city hall...den meet dis girl who buy something from hui fen uh..den after dat went to marina square to eat long john silver which was supposed to be MACDONALD....she treat me..wahaha!!so yeah i dont mind...as long as my stomach is full...hahha!!

hmm,,den we walk2 around marina square...den hui fen decide to watch movie uh....haha...but there is alot of people uh..so yeah we never...den she want to go Cineleisure...so yeah we went there.....walk2...den she want to play LAN....so i just agreed to it uh...but when we want to buy the ticket da person say the comp is fully booked..haizz...den once again hui fen asked me to watch movie....haha...den yeah just watch uh..since we got nothing to do...we watched LADY IN THE WATER...hmm..okok..to those people who are planning to watch dis movie...i suggest that u dont watch uh..its damn boring,lame and u really cant understand the movie uh..so yeah out of 5 i give the movie 2 stars....stupid movie...

after the movie we had to rush to suctec to meet another person...coz hui fen buy somethig from dis person uh...we walk like damn fast uh..like in a race like dat uh....dat stupid person uh..asked her to HURR,HURRY,HURRY....fuck larh....just wait uh...so yeah when we finally meet the person...we walk slowly back to the mrt station and went home.....hui fen drop at tamp int uh coz she have to buy mac chicken for her mom..haha...den yeah she take 31 home while i took 72....
ahaha!!da day which we were supposed to study at national library end up spending it for leisure...wahaha!!next time study uh hui fen...wahaha!!but it was fun uh....wohooo....!! =)

well yeah reached home at about 10pm uh...i quickly bath and sembahyg uh..den called dat silly girl..yeah!!talk and talk and talk...den she suggest to play Truth or Dare...which im sure she regret playing uh...haha..
the truth is out...and im soooooo happy!!! yeah!! =D but i will pretend i didnt noe anything aight..?dont worry aight girl... =)thanks.well i put down the phone at 12.15am uh...coz i was damn sleepy..dont noe wat time silly girl sleep..hmm...

well yeah..later going to have soccer training in front of TP....which going to be half an hour time....and yeah i defer my NS ready..woohoho..such a releive...kk im done with today k...out =))

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 1:57 PM

Friday, July 28, 2006

i dont noe y...but today i feel sad larh...i dont even notice myself untill CCK told me dat i look sad....i dont noe larh...well dis is the thing i hate about myself....when im sad,angry,disappointed or wat....i always wanted to keep it to myself but it always never turn out dat way coz my face shows it all uh....haiz...sucks larh..well yeah...today after physics lesson...saw silly girl uh...but then sunddenly i feel something was wrong uh...like she was feeling sad or angry or something uh..i dont noe uh...but i am i just being paranoid??hmmmmm........

so yeah feeling so damn low uh today in sch....i really feel like going somewhere where there is no one....and shout to the sky uh...."FCUK U LARH FARID!!!,U ARE GOOD FOR NOTHING!!!....DAMN U!!!"im really fed up uh with myself....i dont noe y...crazy right?!haiz....yeah dats farid!!stupid farid....haizzzzzzzz.....

How long will u have to keep denying things uh?!
Why are u so afraid?!
What izzit you're afraid of?!
(if only i had the answer)

well to anywho are reading dis entry.....i noe all of this are crap to u all...well im sorry for wasting ur time here....if it does affect ur mood also im sorry too....well shall not say anything anymore....

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 2:47 PM

Thursday, July 27, 2006

hey hey...hmm...well it has been a stressful week for me uh...basically this week i have been doing intentsive studying uh....mr benjamin low told us dat when u study there is no rest uh except for toilet break uh....as for me not even a toilet break uh..haha!!from one subject to another subject...non stop uh...yeah really...u guys might think im crazy but im not uh...it really helps me uh....to study....

well...da past few days school was okay and every day after sch have to stay back for dnt....wah!!!so tiring uh....yesterday one of the side for my artefact broke...like wat the fuck right!!!haiz...so yeah...today i feel so SICK of dnt ready uh...i actually come to the dnt room and did nothing but walk around the workshop and talk to everyone....wahaha!!i told myself ready uh...i really need a rest from my dnt uh..haiz...

hmm..oh yeah da soccer match against our bedok view sch team is next next week....coz dis week they have common test so cant uh...so check it out next next week k....i really cant wait for that day uh..i have my reason...and im sure most of my team mates have the same reason as mine..wahahah!!evil will conquer the field....!!

hmm....neva see dat silly girl in sch sey..except for in the morning...she was punished uh...haiz...hmm..now chatting with her,op and huifen uh.....yeah..saturday going to bukit panjang with her uh...to see singapore idol....wahaha!!den she going to blanja me macdonald...wahah!!because i win the world cup bet uh...so yeah...

well today i noe silly girl is there for me...when im down....encouraging me......haiz...she just dont want me to give up on my dnt and she really wants me to achieve my goals uh...haiz...she reminded me about orange...HEY ORANGE LISTEN UP......I WONT FORGET ABOUT MY GOALS K.....JUST WATCH OUT FOR IT!!!AND YEAH BE YOURSELF LARH UH.....DONT BE A BALL-LICKING PERSON UH!!

The way i feel might...
Shall be kept inside....
Till i find it's right....
MISSING THE PERSON.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 6:53 PM

Monday, July 24, 2006

hmm....here i am somewhere...did not go school today coz i woke up late uh..7.10am like dat...if i come school also i will have stay back with mr zaldy for one hour...so yeah might as well dont go uh...hmm..yeah...if u read dat silly girl blog u will noe wat happened on saturday nitez uh..wahaha!!but shall not talk about it here uh...dont wanna her to feel bad or sorry uh....to dat silly girl just dont think about it larh uh..wahaha...just glad to accompany u sleeping...hehe!!so yeah...its nothing really... =)

well yest we had soccer match against this "sinchi Fc"...wahaha..all were chinese uh da players...we reached at this priamary sch at about 5pm uh...which we were 30mins early...so yeah we get ready and all...at 5.30pm+ the referee came uh....trust me da referee was totally not like a referee uh...he was more like an apek selling durians at pasar malam sey...and he came with a lorry...walau...haaha!!funny larh...den the match gets on the way....the way the "sinchi fc" play i can tell they play really rough uh..i did not play in the first half so yeah..just watch uh...by end of first half the score was 4-0...which we were losing uh....haiz...den i played in second half uh...i dont what came inside me uh at dat time...but i was like bursting with determination uh....to fight them back and .....i was really the freaking noisy guy on the feild shouting at the opponent coz theopponent goalkeeper was sooooo confident keling dat he come out of the penalty box uh...and communicating with my team mates uh...

well yeah it all paid off uh....when shafiq sairi scored...and suddenly we all play like a team..i mean really like a team....we attacked and defended well....and then....I SCORED...!!!!!woohooo!!!!really man it was satisfying uh....and i shouted at the opponent goalkeeper..."HEY SERVE U RIGHT!!!!NEXT TIME COME OUT UH TO HALF WAY LINE!!!BODOH!!!"yeah i shouted dat uh....fuck uh to dat keeper...but the full time score was 6-2....but we really dont mind about the score uh coz we noe..second half we played damn well uh....GOOD JOB GUYS!!!!
after dat when home....bath and ate my dinner and called dat silly girl uh...she was like practising her oral reading and conversation uh...hmm...her reading was fine but the conversation she just need link up what she have to say....well yeah...GOOD LUCK TO U AIGHT!!=)

hmm..after dis going to sch uh...i wanna do my dnt artefact uh....have to finish it by next monday sey...wah.....i dont noe can finish not...ohhh yeaaahhhh....to all bedok view students...our team going to versus our bedok view B boys team on next tuesday....wahaha!!cant wait for dat...so yeah...check dat out....well nothing else for me to say...so have a nicedat everyone...

We’ve waited far too long to

Watch it all crash and fall through

So when you feel like shit you’ve got to keep on pushing

If you saw the world through my eyes

Then you wouldn’t feel so highrise

It’s time to take our chance you’ve got to sit back and hold tight

There’s forces working in our heads but we don’t understand them

I need a map to find my way out all the time

These curses lurking in our heads but we don’t want to find it

We need to come back down and face what we’ve become

Song lyrics of Curses by Bullet For My Valentine.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 2:12 PM

Saturday, July 22, 2006

hmm...hey..i cabot mendaki lesson uh...i mean for the second half of the lesson uh..which was science....i dont noe y uh...but i just dont feel like studying for now uh...like being thinking alot of stuff lately uh..i dont noe larh me....hmm...well yeah i cabot for mendaki..bad right...hmm...haiz...

well yeah yest dat silly girl said something which makes me go "HUH?"haha...hmm..she said it before i went offline yest...it was "831"....i was like wondering uh wat was she trying to say uh..she did gave me a clue uh....she said each number represent something and it does not make up a sentence uh....and the other clue was... 8 starts with the letter L,3 starts with the letter W and 1 starts with the letter M...so yeah im still figuring it out....she said nothing important uh....hmm..i dont noe larh uh..but i really wanna noe...well i try to find out uh,...anyway which is possible...

now chatting with dat silly girl,suhaila and cuz uh...miss hanging out with my cousin larh...she's being very busy lately..haiz...well tml got soccer match..and my legs still aching uh..i dont noe if i should go or not uh..haiz...maybe i should just go uh..just i kinda bingit uh with my mum or maybe the whole family larh...well dont bother asking me wat happen uh.,..dont wanna talk about it larh...

shall end dis soon larh....hmm...nothing to write ready larh....so yeah...outZ....

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 4:38 PM

Friday, July 21, 2006

hey hey...wahaha!!hmm...wat shall i write today uh....hmm..okok lets talk about yesterday first k...hmm...yest sch was ok uh..like usual...den had to stay back for my dnt....its coming along well uh but i think i dont have enough time to finish it uh...1st of august have to hand in the artefact ready..wah....pressure uh..den yeah yest nitez also wen to jog at bedok stadium with op and saiful....we jog 3 rounds only den the stadium wanna close ready..it was still early though..haiz..like kedai mama sey the stadium....or worse..hmm...den after dat we go outside to the fitness corner...haha..we were doing some exercise uh...

and yeah...while we were resting at the pull up bar...saiful,op and me was like throwing small stones to each other while talking...den saiful was like reaching stones on the floor randomly uh since it was quite dark....den suddenly he pick something which was soooooo disgusting.....hahaha!!IT WAS A DRIED LIZARD...AND I SWEAR IT WAS QUITE BIG...HAHAAHAA!!it was funny larh...haha!!he was saying "eeeeeeeeeee cicak!!"haha!!da best thing was he pick up the lizard with his one whole hand...wahah!!crazy uh..den went home...
reached home at 9.30pm like dat uh...den checked my IDD caller...dat silly girl called uh..so asked my lil sis to help me to call her and asked her call me back...so yeah she did....well talk for quite awhile uh...hmm....

kk about today...ROAD RUN!!!haha...hmm..well yeah basically had to be at the bedok reservoir by 7.30am uh...den after dat got to do dis CEIMO-CEIMO dance..which is i think damn merepek uh..of coz i did not dance...just move my body and legs like monkey..wahaha...den we had to do a indian temple out of baloons..not actually baloons uh...its is bubbles...da one dat is like lembek-lembek den put on the stick and blow...so yeah den dat silly girl say i blow the bubbles like pro...waahaha..like real only farid uh...den after dat da road started...so yeah run like hell uh....coz i really wanna get trophy uh.....finshed da run......silly girl come and talk to me....wahaha!!oh yeah...i guess i owe her something ready uh....

she say if i neve get top 10 i will have to do da previous thing dat i owe her....haha...she noe i noe...wah!!!!its not going to be good uh..hahaha!!den da result was out uh... i didnt get a trophy and not top 10....if only da prize were given to top 20 den surely i will get uh..quite disappointed uh...but den yeah....i try my best ready....and im really glad...!!wee~~haha!!hey dat silly girl get trophy uh,,,she's in th 10th postion...and a medal uh for team event..not fair!!wahaha!!
CONGRATULATION SILLY GIRL!! :D YEAH!

then after dat went home taking 168....i was damn tired uh...lucky no dnt today uh..coz i want to go to sch to finish up my dnt but cancel coz something on at sch so yeah phew~...reached home feeling half dead....quickly take shower and den drop dead on my bed....woohoo...!!haha...well now im just chatting and browsing through friendster...hmm....well yeah i think dats all uh for today....

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 7:29 PM

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

hey hey...well im now at bedok cc uh..just have the urge to use the comp uh...so no comp at home...have to come here larh..haizz...well today was very fun uh...haha!!i went to watch movie with dat silly girl..wahaha!!very fun larh...we went to century square to watch RECYCLE....well its was scary uh...like thrilling....den got dis part where dat silly girl said it was like "alice in wonderland"..wahaha!!den da last part was touching uh..i feel like crying uh but i hold back my tears...wahaha!!

den after da movie had ended..which was like 10mins to 5pm...we went to eat uh..haha!!since i chose which movie to watch she has to choose where to eat..wahaha!!so yeah she wanted to eat long john...haha!!hey dat silly girl show me how she look when she wear specs...wahaha!!u all wanna see?kk im evil...haha!!but seriously it was ok uh....haha..she was damn malu uh..haha!!PEMALU...hey we saw su fong and her friend while we were eating uh..

well after eatinng went back to interchange and take 38...send her home larh..wahaha....inside bus uh....talk to her alot uh...den she was like telling me all kinds of jokes uh..hahaha!!damn funny larh...haha!!oh yeah she still one more thing uh..hahaha..she should noe...not the money for the food uh..wahaha!!*wink*

well yeah now talking to dat silly girl uh.haha!!asking her permission if i can post her pics with specs...haha..she consider her specs as a killer specs..wahaha..yeah!!she said can...so yeah let me present to u...silly girl wearing specs...wahaha!!

Before she wear specs..wahaha..nice uh her smile... :D

There...she puts on her specs...haha!!she was shy uh..dats why she close her eyes..wahaha!!

haha...she cant wait to open her specs....haha!!

The Killer Specs.

Dont hope that everything will turn out fine.
But if what i hope for do become a reality,
Then should i take the chance??
I dont noe what seems right to me.
Either she will be there when i need her,
Or she is just leading me on where it comes to nothing.
Please just show me a sign,anything......

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 8:31 PM

Monday, July 17, 2006

Well have not been blogging for days ready uh...wah..haiz..my comp spoil larh...should be sending it for repair soon...hmm...alot of things happened uh for the past few days..two of it is...isa birthday thingy at SAKURA and da soccer match on sunday...which we lose..4-1..haizz quite bad uh...talk alot with dat silly girl also uh...even i dont have my hp....well yest send her home after the soccer match uh..yeah!! :D my crazy friends has make me happy dis past few days uh....but not today uh...just when i thought "dis" fear of mine is gone...it came back when when i read about something uh...i just dont noe..and i should think about it uh..wont talk about it ready larh..hmm...today entry will be alot of photos uh...so yeah..

hey..luthfi whats with da cramp face??ahaa!!

what u looking at??cant u see im enjoying the ice cream..

isa's birthday cake...it was DELICIOUS uh...

isa waiting patiently for the candle to be lighted up..haha!!he cant wait to eat the cake uh...haha!!

*fooooooohhh*haha!!

Nice picture of us.

All smiles for the birthday boy!! :D

The Bros and Lil Sis..wahaha!!

Look how worried he is after being bar-ed..hahaha!!op no crime please... :P

One last picture before we head for home...

hey dis was taken secretly..hahaha!!inside da bus sending dat silly girl home uh..wahaha...i dont noe if she noe...so yeah...haha!!GOTCHA!!wahaha!!

I need a map to find a way which will lead me to the truth and tell what to do next.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 6:25 PM

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

well yest the worst day of my life uh...wanna what noe happened??firstly my handphone cant be used for now uh...because got something wrong uh....so i noe...i cant msg dat silly girl on weekends ready uh..i mean for the time being...so yeah i was really down....haiz...but when i reached home ...i really wanted to go online uh..wanted to talk to dat silly girl online..but my comp also got something wrong....haizz....i was really damn sad ready..at dat time also i was studying geography uh...den i just cried uh... really cried and my dad saw me crying uh...but he didnt say anything....haiz....

da feeling is sooooo sucks uh...after dat i just stop studying...go bath..after dat straight away...lie down on my bed in my room...listen to da song i sang to dat silly girl i cry again...den i just cry uh through the nights...haiz...den still i cant sleep uh..den i listen to dat silly girl sing on my phone coz i record it uh...den im able to sleep..its not because its boring but i just wanted to hear her voice soooooo much den listening to her sing is good enough for me...haiz....

well today woke up for sch with my eyes lebam like hell uh...and i feel damn sleepy uh....but had to go to sch uh..hmm...yeah reach sch at 7.10am uh..and it was raining...well today get my chem paper uh...IT WAS FUCK-ED UP!!haiz...shall not talk about it larh....haiz...it cant get any worse for me uh...then today me,isa and CCK play dis *cough cough* thingy...only us noes what is it for uh...haahah!!damn funny uh....hahha!!den saw dat silly girl in the canteen during recess... :)after sch i stay back and did my geography notes uh....until like 3.30 uh....den i went to my cousin house....well yeah here i am at my cousin place...well now im chatting with dat silly girl.. :)well later im going to study chemistry when i reach home....hmm...dat silly girl going to win the challenge uh...coz like most of her subjects she pass..haizz...

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 5:57 PM

Monday, July 10, 2006

Hmm...hey i watched the world cup finals dis morning and im soooooooooo happy dat italy had won....wanna noe why??coz with italy won the world cup dis means also i win the bet with Hui Fen and with the silly girl.!!!wahahaha!!so yeah hui fen owe me a macdonald meal or she have to follow me go baybeats if she can go uh...but i still prefer macdonald...can fill my empty stomach...wahaha!!and for dat silly girl...too bad france didint win....so showing me how u look wearing specs is still in my owe list...wahaha!!yeah!!and yeah....since italy win....i have to blanja dat silly girl a movie uh...haha!!THIS IS BETTER THAN I EXPECTED.Dat zidane uh...HE'S NUTz AND INSANE!!headbutt-ing dat player...wahaha!!it really shock me uh...coz didnt expect zidane to do dat...but a win is a win....hahaha!!

so yeah after the match i quickly go take some sleep..and i only manage to have 30minutes of sleep...wow...can u imagine....den yeah have to wake up uh to go to sch...haiz...leave home at 6.15am...and yeah today waited for the bus damn long uh...from 6.20am i waited...da bus came at 6.20am..like wat the hell!!so yeah came to sch also just on time...hahaha!!at assembly heard everyone talking about the zidane incident uh...hahah!!well can say today sch was quite boring uh..like neva learn anything today...except dat we get back 2 of our exam papers...physics and maths paper 2...haizzz...well shall not talk about it larh....hmm..i guess dat silly going to win uh da challenge we made...haiz....saw her once only today...hmm..after sch...went to DO & ME to buy fries...den went home....

hmm...so yeah here i am...well must be wondering why i blog early today uh??coz im damn sleepy now and i cannot take it...so yeah later i wanna sleep for at least 2 hours...den wake up...by then should be at night...i wanna study my maths uh...so yeah lazy to blog at night....hmm...*yawn*...k dats all uh.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 5:51 PM

Sunday, July 09, 2006

oh what a day for me today....haha!!well yeah....today woke late uh because talk to dat SILLY GIRL uh on the phone till like 2am++ uh...well yeah..yest she sing to me uh...wow!i tell u..she had a GREAT VOICE uh...haha!!really....she sang to me two songs...Unfaithful and Dangerously in love.i tot i can got off the hook just like dat..but she wants me to sing too...haha!!wow...im soooo nervous and scared..but then i sing uh to her....Here without you and Far away....she said my voice was nice but i noe she must be joking uh..haha!!my voice sucks at singing..haha!hey that silly girl wanna cook for me sey...wah...i tot she was joking but she said no..ahaha!!she really wanna cook for me something....haha!!sweet uh dat girl...

kk...today msg her uh...she was upset with something uh...haiz..im sure she's fine now uh...haha!!hey today got soccer match against shafiq's thair dad team...it was raining heavily...but da match was still on uh...so yeah meet the team at bedok int. at 3.30opm..and den make our way to the field near kallang there uh...at 5pm++ the game started...i did not play in the first half uh...da first half score was....we are leading by 2 goals to 1....woohoo...den second half i played uh...da feild was shit uh....hahaha!!so damn muddy and u cant really da ball high...got this pak cik uh...he tried to tackled me uh..den i like dodge the tackle....den the referee gave him yellow card...hahaha!!serve him right...haha!!da game ended...and we won!!!!yeah!!!!3-1....not bad uh..haha!!

here comes the funny part..the place we were playing..has no toilet..haha!!merepek right...so yeah....we were all covered with mud all over our body uh...and got no water to wash with....what is the solution to this problem...??we go wash our legs with drain water....woohoo....!!hahaha!!yeah u might think its disgusting uh..but if u guys were in our shoe..u will do the same uh....all of us like in a straight row...at the drain sitting down...washing our legs....hahahah!!very funny larh...after finished "cleaning" ourselve...we make our way home...take 196 to bedok int. and take 168 to tampines uh...reached home at about 9pm uh..den straight away go bath...SOOOOOOO REFRESHING!!!!wahaha!!well below is the picture taken for today uh...i even bring back "BEKAL" home....u wanna noe??see below...

The "bekal"-Two kilo of mud please,take away.

The tiredness he feels.

Its Luthfi and Hafizzudin discussing.

well now im chatting with alot of people uh...soooo damn busy...haha!!oh yeah...huifen got a deal with me...if france win right..i have to follow her to bay beats and if italy wins she have to follow me go baybeats...haha!!but depends uh if she can go or not..if not she have to blanja me MACDONALD...haha!!hmm...im still smsing dat silly girl...she actually want to wait for me to sleep sey..haha!!sweet girl...so yeah dats it uh..nitez!

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 9:52 PM

Saturday, July 08, 2006

well yest we had soccer training in front of TP....haha!!supposed to be there by 8.30am...but because i woke up late like around 8.45am....i reached there at 9.30am...haha!!well there were only 9 people who came...u noe wat??hafiz melalot came but he did not brin his soccer boots...haha!!crazy uh dat guy..so yeah he play kaki ayam..haha!!we do alot of things uh...from..freekicks to penalty kick to set pieces...by 12pm we stop our activity ready coz we were sooooo worn out....it was tiring uh....den make my way home...kk..enough dat was yest....

about today....hmm..woke up early in the morning..like 8++am...den just lie on my bed dont noe till wat time...haha..den go watch tv....pokemon and masked rider 555..haha!!hmm...Her msg me...yeah!!so yeah msg her till now....hmm...now im doing nothing uh..just rotting...lucky got Her to msg....she always makes my day..haha!!yeah..den now im online...chatting with my kak shida uh...she seems lost uh with him....i mean like she dont noe wat to do uh...to keep "it" alive uh....think of something cuz..think think......

hmm...just now studied chemistry uh..from 1.30pm till 3.30pm...i was supposed to finish da chapter on air,atmosphere and environment yest but im not able to uh...soooo tired..so yeah i continue today..i manage to finish it uh..YEAY!!haha!!maybe after dis im going to study english uh...so yeah..i think dats all uh....

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 5:25 PM

Thursday, July 06, 2006

ohh...what a day for me...is damn merepek,tiring and moments of nervous..haha!!well today da sec 4 and 5 went to espalnade early in the morning because we got maths trail....first we got briefing in the hall...they gave us worksheets and refreshments..(plain water and hot dog bun)..by 8++am we were on the way there...it was raining though....hmm...i thought dis going to be fun...but IT WAS TOTALLY NOT FUN!!!!waste my time uh at there...yeah really...got this one station uh where we have to go up and down an escalator to calculate how long does it takes to go up and down the escalator uh...I MEAN HOW STUPID IS DAT??!!k fine...if they asked us to do the STUPID TASK once i dont mind uh..but WTF...they asked us to repeat da procedure 4 freaking times....!!!we are really like dis dumb ass uh...i just give in uh and do da task....haiz...so yeah ended the thingy at 11am...while waiting took few photos uh...

dont touch those horns. :P scene outside esplanade.

hmm...after dat went back to sch and go to the hall...got prize presentation uh..i tell u it was sooooo damn boring uh...da whole thing ended at 12.30++pm...then after dat...went down to the canteen waiting for my MALAY 'O' LEVEL ORAL
to start....hey talk to Her in the canteen...i thought she dont wanna talk and her "bodyguard" was there so i keep quiet uh at first but she said hello..then i start talking...oh she pandang rendah at me eeeehhhh....haha!!tak pe2.. :P
so yeah by 1.45pm went up to the hall...we have to wait ouside first uh...haha!!we were sooooooooooooooo bored uh....wanna see how look while waiting??

can you feel our boredness??haha!!

Soon the moment we have been waitng for...ORAL TIME!!haha..and shit!!im da first one to go....i was soooo nervous but i keep my cool...haha!!after reading and talking to the examiners....PHEW~...im done...truthfully i did ok uh..even though i got gagap while talking..but i spoke bahasa baku all da way...yeah!!after dat went home uh with syafiq sulaiman...hmm...syafiq wants me to dance with him sey and perform on grad nite...i dont noe uh...see first uh...

ATTENTION TO BAND LOVERS.

HEY EVERYONE WHO JUST LOVES BANDS COME DOWN TO ESPLANADE ON THE 14-16 OF JULY.BAYBEATS 2006!!I SURELY WANNA GO....

This is my thoughts uh...hmm..im really happy when i get to see her and talk to her...but dat happens like seldomly uh...i wish i could spend more time with her..BUT i noe i can neva do dat..is not dat i cant but i just dont have the chance to uh...firstly because of the "bodygaurd" she has uh...he will go accompany her always so yeah...i mean its fine uh at least got someone who takes good care of her...and yeah they are much more closer...hmm..next is dat if i were to ask her if i can spend more time with her...i would feel uncomfortable,uneasy and scared...scared anything would go wrong between us uh when everything is going on well...so yeah im just scared uh...feeling regret and bad the other time...i dont dare to ask again...haizz...MAYBE LET NATURE TAKE IT CAUSE.....

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 4:16 PM

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

wah....today was quite a boring day for me uh...but in the morning was fun uh...haha!!went online and Her was online uh...so yeah chatted with her.,..at first nothing to talk...den...CRAP ALL THE WAY!!haha!!To that silly girl uh...please dont deny dat ur anak read for u when ur doing ur homework uh..haha!!and she is much more mature than u... =P haha!!hey everybody...u all must noe dis..she is 15 years old going to be 16 soon enough but she still play with BARBIE DOLLS!!can u beleive it??haha!!hey i neva play with wrestling cards already ok...and I DONT GO TO PLAYGROUND...MY LIL BRO DOES..HMMP!haha! :P she is jealous larh dat i have grown up but she has not....hahaha!!it takes time aight...

well today went to expo to study...went out of house at 1pm and reached there at 1.30 sharp..ahha!!fast uh...it was soooooooo empty and quiet there...i studied physics uh....while studying...my mum called me and tell me to be back soon..coz nobpdy at home to take care of my lil bro...my twin bro went ...he say he go take something uh..*such a liar*..so yeah pack my stuff then and rush back home...my mum is sick uh....reached home...my mum and faiz was asleep uh...nothing to do..went online uh...Her was online...well now chatting with her uh...today was her oral...she said it was okay not too bad...so yeah glad to hear dat...just now went to change my blogskin...haha!!woohoo~da previous skin was like small uh da space...so yeah im happy with da new one...

tml is my O level malay oral exam.wish me luck.. and tml going to espalnade. :D

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 6:01 PM

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

hey...hmm today was consider a bad day for me uh...haizz..firstly in the morning...when i want to go to sch i find out that my mum neva left me money for sch...haiz..but its fine with me uh...then went out go to sch...reached sch at about 10.10am...well today paper was DNT...FUCK!!i didnt study for dat subject uh....and i noe im gonig to fail dat paper...

so yeah..FAIL,FAIL,FAIL!!stupid farid...hmm...after da paper went out of sch to play soccer at the street soccer uh...i swear i didnt have the mood to play uh...and i was freakng hungry uh...but still i just ignore...my hungriness...at about 4++pm went home with yusri...we waited for the bus 31 damn long uh...till we gave up waiting for 31 bus we took 222 and take 168 home...haiz...

reached home.....thinking there will be food for me to eat...but i was wrong...there was totally no food to eat uh...so im like shivering uh..one day neva eat...haha!!nvm larh....i shall keep this to myself...now im doing nothing except for chatting with Her uh...and browsing friendster....after this...hmm....dont wanna do anything and shut my mouth up...well dats me uh when im in no mood,sad or angry...

well i just hope my mood wont affect anything or anyone uh..especially yest nitez...i feel bad about it..haizz...maybe i should keep quiet uh...and wont ask anything.....guess...i want to be all by myself for a few days huh....hmm...

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 6:44 PM

Monday, July 03, 2006

All that he ask for.

Hmm....decide to write an early entry coz dont want to do anything at night uh...tml got sch lei..hey!!tml got DNT PAPER!!!DIE DIE!!haha!!i havent yet study uh....soooo freaking lazy sey wanna go study on dat subject.its like topic dat will come out at random so it can be from any chapter inside da thick text book...waaaaahh~~.maybe i just flip flip da book later on...haha!!
haiz....i got nothing to do sey at home...so bored...!!well this week i think only alternate days we are coming tp sch because....tuesday got exam...but on wednesday got no exam for me..wee~ :P
so no sch....hmm...den on thursday have to come sch coz i got my MALAY 'O' LEVEL ORAL!!on that day also we(sec4 and sec5)going to esplanade coz we got this maths trail...haha!!den on friday got this EXCEL FEST thingy uh..so no sch for da whole sch i think...dats wat ameer says uh...let see uh wat happen during dis days and will blog about it aight...

haiz...i really dont noe wat to do now sey...hmm...going out uh later if i have da "jumpy jumpy" mood..haha!!my craaaazzzyyy mood...haha!!for now...just rotting at home while watching tv....shhheeessshh...

tahirah ur blind uh....haha!!go make a specs for yourself...haha!! :P
oh yeah..yest was suhaila birthday!!HAPPY SWEET 16TH BIRTHDAY GIRL!!chey can watch N16 movie ready uh....haha!!sorry about didnt blog about your birthday yest.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 11:49 AM

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Hey there....haha!!weee~~im so freaking happy that i made dis blog all by myself sey..haha..it takes me like wat??hmm..almost 2 hours to do it....terkial-kial sey...haha..but in the end I DID IT!!woohoo...kk enough of your bragging about your blog thing aight.haha!!

ok lets see wat happened today...?hmm...yeah...woke up early in the morning uh like 8.30am..coz haziq ask me to play soccer at the street soccer court uh near our sch....so yeah took my time uh to get there....actually have to reach there by 9am...but i reached there around 9.30++am....suprisingly only me,ommar and jacky was there...haziq and da rest came after 10 to 15mins uh...haha!!we play against dis chinese and indian team...which they was more like palying on the field than at the street soccer uh...got tactics and formation..haha!!
heard one the chinese guy ask his team mates...."we play wat uh??1-2-1 or 2-1-1??(we are playing 5 palyers per team)haha!!i really cant stop laughing uh when i heard he asked dat....but nvm larh...dis is wat we call PASSION...u sleep with the ball...u eat with the ball...u win u cry...u lose u also cry...haha!!LAME...

well yeah we ended da game at 3pm...very long uh..i was soooooo tired ready..haha!!oh yeah...u noe...got one part right when we are walking to the street soccer we saw two TAKEWANDO kids walking in front of us uh...den we actually run to them and show our "RESPECT" to them...ahahah!!it was damn funny uh...and it was all haziq idea....haha!!den after dat when home uh....at home do nothing but singing to myself while my brother bear with my singing...haha!!nice ok... :P now just chatting with syazanaB...haha!!she insist dat i change her name to at my blog to syazana sexy...haha!!see first larh...hmm..yeah i think dats all for today...yeah..msg tahirah today too...she actually wanna ajak me go jogging but then tak jagi coz her dad want to ajak the family go eat dinner outside..so yeah...maybe next time uh... :D out!

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 8:40 PM