& You, I Saw You.

& i am.

[Muhd Farid]
-Wasted Youths.
-Messed Hair.
MERCU Private Sch.
29 April 1989.
Taurus.
Loved Tahirah
hits

& my friends.

ADILIN
AISYAH
ATIKAH
AYIEEN
CLARABELLE
ELISA
FARADELLA
HUIFEN
HUIYI
IVAN
IYLIEE
KAK SHIDA
KAREN
RABIATUL
SAMIRAH
SERENA
SHAZWANI
SHEIKHA
SYAZANA
TAHIRAH
XINROU
ZAFIRAH
ZAKI
ZULAIHA[baby]

& we reminisce

& we listen.

& we thank.

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Sunday, November 26, 2006

When There Was Me and You

I Guess This Is The End.
Thank You.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 12:35 PM

Friday, November 24, 2006

Stacie Oricco - I Promise (Live)

Can i be this secure?
Well i really like this song.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 3:34 PM

Just came back from fetching her.
Well i it was heart-pumping moment for me.
I guess i got my reasons.
I was so nervous and so scared to face her.
In the first place i actually did not wanted to go,
But i just tell myself anything happens..
Keep my feelings to myself.
Msg-ed Dary or so called update me on the situation.
Until he called me and said she was sad.
So yeah i decide to appear.
AND THERE WAS I.
The first thing she did was to chase after me and
pinch my arms countless of time.
I didnt expect that she would like react that way,
Cause Susu told her about my insecure-ness.
I mean from the way she react, i never want to imagine if i did go.

Well i got 2 "special presents" from 2 people.
Huifen present was in text though....
"I hate you la!"
Then from suhaila, A direct hit to my body by her handbag.
Wonderful right the presents they gave me?
I have such a Wonderful friends.
In a way im very glad that she has came back.
But i still have my insecure-ness.
The 10 days period was not just an ordinary 10 days.
To me its a test.
Test of what??
Test Of Trust!
And you know what, I FAILED!.
Yeah truthfully speaking i failed.
Even now.
HAIZ.
My feelings is all jumble up till i dont noe what to feel.
Sorry to be feeling this way.

First i wanna say sorry to SUHAILA
Yes i did trouble you with all nuisance.
And kinda lie to you about all this.
So im really sorry about it.
But in a way i wanna thank you for the things you said to me.
"Do not make harsh and stupid decision"
I will remember that.
If wasnt for that words i would certainly wouldnt be there today.

Second person i wanna apologise to is HUIFEN.
Yes im really sorry for making you sad and worried for me.
You persuaded me not to go which i feel so bad.
So im really sorry for all the trouble.
Thanks for making the video about me.
Somehow it touches my heart.
I really appreciate it.
Thank you so much!!

Last but not least, the important person, TAHIRAH.
Well i really sorry to be doing this to you.
But today was very bad compare to 10 days ago.
Like i said i cannot imagine how will you react if i really decide to go.
Im sorry for thinking rubbish about the whole thing.
But as far as it is over, i do still have this insecure feeling of mine.
IF you do change heart, tell me and i will try and accept it.
Once again im sorry for making you sad and trouble you just now.
Hope you will ignore the insecure-ness in me aight.

Today is someone-someone very special day.
Well congratulation to the both of you & may it last.
She gave me a Small Bicycle that she bought from Cambodia.
Kembangan Place. =)
Well Thank You So Much!
Hope you like my gift too.
HAIZ....
Everybody take care alright.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 2:51 PM

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

nirina - hari ini, esok dan seterusnya

I love my friends & her no matter what.
Take care all of you.
Haiz.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 8:33 PM

Monday, November 20, 2006

Basically im done with my Os.
But i cant enjoy yet.
Well i got my reasons.
I dont want to be too happy about it.
Today im not going to blog anything.
Just pictures.
Take care everyone.
Especially Tahirah.

The Background Is So Beautiful.Not The Person.

Now Like His Name:FAR-RED??

There's Always A Crazy Moment Of Him.

The Best Picture Of All.
IM IN LOVE WITH THIS PIC.
He Was Missing Someone So much.
But Do That Someone Miss Him?

Goodbye.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 7:37 PM

Sunday, November 19, 2006

I do not know why but i feel like blogging again.
But im speechless to say anything.
And im stuck with words on what should i say.
HAIZ.
Maybe its too early to say that you have change,
so i will not think any much about it.
I hope you are still you when the day before you left.
And i hope you're not planning to do anything negative.
I trust you that you wont do such a thing.
ILU.alot....
These words.
Seems fimiliar.You said it to me once.

Tomorrow my last 2 papers.
I hope it wont affect me so much.
After that i will i have to make a decision.
What?
I shall not say.
Most probably i will.
Well to all O level students, enjoy after tomorrow paper k.
Be happy.
As for me, no enjoyment yet.
Well im running out of words.
So yeah.
Take care Tahirah.
May you come home safe,
My makcik.
ILUSM still.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 5:31 PM

My Immortal - Evanescence

I just hope this video will make deep impression towards certain people.Thanks.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 2:43 PM

Well if you're able to see this,
I just wanna say....
I dont noe if im assuming or my INSTINCT tells me
that you're a different person when i chatted with you.
I didnt expect that.
Well maybe im wrong.
I dont want to hope so much once you return.
But if ever your feelings towards me changes,
Im not suprised with it.
MAYBE BECAUSE IM EASILY FORGOTTEN.
so yeah i dont mind.
But what ever you do, please take care of yourself.
Keep having fun.

Thanks Suhaila, Huifen and Daryszuan for everything.
Goodbye everyone for now.

When There Was Me And You

It's funny when you find yourself

Looking from the outside

I'm standing here but all

I wantIs to be over there
Why did I let myself believe

Miracles could happen

Cause now I have to pretend

That I don't really care
I thought you were my fairytale

A dream when I'm not sleeping

A wish upon a star

That's coming true

But everybody else could tell

That I confused my feelings

With the truth

When there was me and you
I swore I knew the melody

That I heard you singing

And when you smiled

You made me feel

Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words

Now my heart is empty

I'm only left with used-to-be's and

Once upon a song
Now I know your not a fairytale

And dreams were meant for sleeping

And wishes on a star

Just don't come true

Cause now even I can tell

That I confused my feelings

With the truth

Because I liked the view

When there was me and you
I can't believe that I could be so blind

It's like you were floating

While I was falling

And I didn't mind
Cause I liked the viewwhoooo whooooooo

I thought you felt it too

When there was me and you

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 1:03 AM

Saturday, November 18, 2006

As promise, i shall blog today.
But i decided not to blog any longer than a notebook.
Basically im kinda IRRITATED right.
By my mum nagging plus people pestering me to go grad night.
If you have alrady know the reason for not going grad night,
stop asking me.
But if all insist asking me despite you knowing already,
i shall make this very CLEAR to everyone who are planning to
persuade me to go graduation night.

The reason im not going graduation night beccause
TAHIRAH wont be here in Singapore on that day
which means she's CANT go which she really
wanna go.
So since she cant go, i wont go.
I PROMISE her that if she dont go, then i wont go.
Thats it and thats final.

Well i hope i make this very CLEAR.
As far as you all are my bros and friends who wants me to go to graduation night,
I really want Tahirah to be there on that day too.
As far as you all are my bros and friends who are important to me,
Tahirah is important to me too.
I made a PROMISE.
Hope you guys understand the meaning PROMISE.
Which letter in the word PROMISE u do not understand,
please look for me.
I will be more than willing to explain it to you all.

Well thats all.
Im sorry for not going.
Hope you all have fun.

6 more days.......

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 6:13 PM

Friday, November 17, 2006

Have not being blogging.
Sorry no mood & dont feel like it.
I promise i shall blog tomorrow.
There's many things i wanna blog about.

I SURVIVED 4 LONELY DAYS.
ONE MORE WEEK TO END THIS TERRIBLE FEELINGS.
I CAN MAKE IT!
AND IM NOT GOING GRADUATION NIGHT.

I MISS HER ALOT.
TAKE CARE GIRL.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 6:05 PM

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

This morning, somehow i dont now wat should i feel.
Happy?? or Sad??
Its kinda both.Yeah.
Happy because firstly my suprised plan works.
It turn out well and Tahirah was really happy to see me at the airport.
Smiles was all on her face.
I really glad i came.
Farid=Yang istimewa(very special)=Unpredictable.
Tahirah thinks im unpredictable.
While i think Tahirah has a VERY GOOD INSTINCT,
which does not seem to go wrong.
Proud of her.
Sad because seeing her leave just shattered my heart,
eventhough it is just for 10 days.
She keep asking me to send her nearer to the departure area.
I did that, before i knew it, she checked in already.
Wave goodbye whenever she looked at me.
Smiles with hidden sadness which i can feel deep down inside her.
Slowly she was not in sight.

The feelings of seeing your love ones go is TERRIBLE.
LIKE HELL!!
Before she left, she leave me with 2 HEARTS.
First was the VCD title HEART which she really wants me to watch.
Well i already done so.
Second was her true heart, i mean mentally.
Because i somehow feels she is right here with me.
Man...im feeling so speechless about it.
No night call from her.
Miss her saying:
"Good night...Sweet dreams....sleep tight...
Dont let the cat scratch you ok??
Dont bully Faiz...Take care.
And ILU."
How can get through 10 days when a day seems so difficult for me?
I shall not say about it anymore.
Heart pain.
Well just now i did meet up with Tahirah's mum and brother.
Her brother know about Tahirah and me but i was kinda nervous.
Want to end this.

I miss her so much now. =(
Thanks kak syida for your encouragement.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 11:09 PM

Monday, November 13, 2006

Well this is it,
Its time for her to go,
Locking myself in my rooms,
Crying my eyes out.
As i write this entry.
My very first time after so long im crying.
The feelings is damn terrible.
I cant even describe it.
Big HAIZ.
WHY DO I HAVE TO CRY??!!!!!!
Ho w i wish i could pretend everything was normal.
But i couldnt.

Tahirah,
Please do take care aight where ever you go.
Dont let anything happen to you.
I dont noe what to say anymore.
Hope everything will be alright there.
Dont forget me and any of your friends here ok.
IM GONNA MISS YOU. <3

Kak syida, msg me if u can.
I really need someone to talk to.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 9:17 PM

Sunday, November 12, 2006

Firstly, Im soooooo lazy to blog in words,
so i shall put up alot of photos for you all to see.
Maybe the last part of this entry shall be words
or rather few sentences.
So here is the pictures.

Miss Farhana's Bodyguards.

Is that FARID proposing to Miss farhanah??!haha!!

As usual FARID is NOT the serious guy there.

Here is your Top 3 SKINNY-EST HUNKS.

Farid, PLEASE go with the flow will you!!

OMG!!What was that??!!

Did you FART op?!HEY!!

It was JUST HIM.

StarBucks my World.Not.

Hey we are PUFFER FISH for a day.

We will be watching you.

To tahirah,
Im really sorry i force you to go to my cousin house.
Without even thinking about your condition.
Even though my cousin asked you to come i should noe that your sick.
It was very selfish of me to think only about you coming there.
For that im really sorry, sorry for everything.
I hate it to be that way.
Sorry.
Take care girl.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 9:34 PM

Saturday, November 11, 2006

Guess what people???
O level is finally over.
Near-ly though...
Got 2 more papers to go
Dnt and Science paper 1.
Ok how did i fair for my O level...
Let see...
I screwed up chemistry badly because of something.
Maths was BLOODY hell hard especially the paper 1
WTH!
I have no confidence to score high marks.
How??!
So worried ready for my maths and chemistry.
For Combined humanities i guess it was ok TO ME.
I shall emphasise TO ME...
Because from what i heard from my 4E friends,
they find the geog paper very difficult.
Well different people will rate differently the paper.
Physics was ok so is english paper 1 & 2,
except that my summary i EXCEED the word limit.
HAHA!damn crazy farid.
So yeah i guess thats it for O levels.
IM GONNA BE FREE FROM BOOKS AND EXAMS!!!!!!!!! =)

And im so happy that finally get to blog again.
What i noe, i will be very busy.
Busy ENJOYING TO THE FULLEST!! =)
Will be alot of outing with friends plus Grad nite plus work.
Woohooo!!
Yeah, actually we got job on hold ready.
HUGO BOSS @ Paragon.
Isnt it just GREAT or AWESOME??
CCK,OP,ISA & ME will be going for the interview on 25th of Nov.
Right after grad nite.
Oh yeah not forgetting,i think there will be soccer matches too.

Yesterday finally i had my 2nd hari raya outing.
Believe it!!yes my 2nd...
I have not been going out for raya.
The 5n3 monkeys, i mean not all, almost most the malays plus two indian,
went to Miss Farhanah house cause she had move house to pasir ris.
I can understand why miss farhanah say her economy is doing badly.
HAHA!!
Her house is being enlarge by 2 times i think.
It was more spacious than her old house.
But look forward to go to her house because.............
THE BLOODY CHICKEN!!!!!
i mean she cook this chicken every year which have been in MOUTH WANTED LIST!!
Who have not try, i suggest u GO try because it has been FINGER LICKING GOOD!!
getting better each year.
But i didnt expect miss farhanah to give us blue packet.
Cause she did tell me something.
Well left miss farhanah house at 10.15pm,
thought of lepak-ing but i guess it was late.
Reached pasir ris interchange at 10.30++
Took mrt home.Drop down with syazana.
Reached home at 11pm.

The day is getting nearer,
Im so not looking forward to it,
But i guess it will alright,
Cause its not forever.
The day you come back,
It will be the day, i know all the waiting is worthwhile.
And its going to be the day for You & Me. <3

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 9:54 AM

Monday, November 06, 2006

My Heart

Love this song.
All thanks to my MAKCIK!!
thank you.ILUSM!!
Have not yet watch the movie,
But i can roughly know how the movie goes.
Lesson learn:
Love ONE not TWO.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 10:08 PM

Saturday, November 04, 2006

IMPORTANT:
ONE MORE DAY BEFORE O LEVEL EXAMS START!!
BE PREPARE O LEVEL STUDENTS.
YOU GOING TO PUT YOUR FUTURE ON THE LINE!!
GET READY!!
IM WARNING YOU!!

Ok today was a BUSY day for me.
I got to run here and there,
just to learn and study with someone which are way better than me.
Like theres a saying "You will learn better with more than one brain"
First study with SU LING and FREDY BONG!
So happy that we are still as good friends.
HAHA. Su ling & me was like disturbing OP & SOTONG.
Who?who?
Dont noe.
Happy to see su ling.
Then after dat when to meet suhaila and salehin.
Study at his house.
THANKS SUHAILA FOR THE TAXI RIDE!!
Oh yeah suhaila made a new friend.
The taxi driver.
AHAH!
She noe why.
Then went home feeling so tired.
URGH!!

Looking forward after Os:
*Vivo City
*The Cathay
*Something which dashima noes.
*Raya Outing With My friends
*Outing with Huifen & Elisa
*Outing with Su ling,Charissa,Fredy and others.(if possible)
*AND SPENT MORE TIME WITH HER!! (important) =)

Ok people i mdone here.
Take care & Good night. =)

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 9:13 PM

Thursday, November 02, 2006

Im dead tired now.
But i cant resist to blog about today.
MANY things happened today.
And i mean alot....

Ok first in the morning,
Woke up at 8am because i promise myself to go study,
So i did fulfill my promise today and went to bedok library,
I reached there at 9.45am which was 15mins before the library opens.
But didnt expect the library to be a FAMOUS hang outs for people.
It amazed me how much people were there waiting for it to open.
And the best thing was when it is 5mins before the library opens,people are actually CROWDING at the enterance.
They were like pushing and bumping into one another.
DONT consider me inside the crowd cause i wasnt in the crowd.
Instead i stood a distance away, watching and laughing to myself.
Its like of those grand opening in VIVO CITY like tahirah said.
So with these i can conclude how typical a Sinagaporeans can be.
Plus plus plus the "kan-chong-ness" in them.
It couldnt get any better i guess.
Singaporeans i shall say.

Ok back to my studies.
So yeah i did get a place in the library which is sooooo rarely to get if come into the library at 12pm onwards.
But no,i came at 10am sharp,settled down quickly and did my revision.
I did my maths for 3 straight hours.BURSTING BRAINS??
HELL YEAH!!
I realised how weak i am in maths.
I mean not for all the chapters but for certain chapters like VECTORS,LOCUS & LOCI & NUMBER PATTERNS.
Somebody please help me with all these chapters??
ANYBODY....call my emergency hotline alright.
But luck was on my side as i will be a busy man tomorrow.
Not selling durians or tissue papers....
But studying maths and other subjects.
Let me see...
Having a study session with Su ling at Expo after prayer.
She going to teach me MATHS.
In the morning supposed to have study session with Syazana Bakar.
But she cannot make it in the morning & suppose to teach me maths.
But i decide if she cannot in the morning, i shall go school tml and meet Mrs Koh.
Then Saturday going to have study session with Suhaila and again its going to be maths.
So much maths to do.

At 5pm,went to meet MAKCIK.yeah!! =)
Today didnt go home straight because she need to change her poker-dot shirt at bugis street.
So i accompanied her.
Arrived the Bugis, got this guy asking for donation for $4.
$2 each thought.
At first we did not want to but the guy insisterd.
So yeah we agreed.
I have to admit i was SUPER SLOW taking out my money.
Then Tahirah give the guy $5....
Thinking the guy would return her the $1 back.
BUT NO!!He was bullshitting with us and we like ignore it.
Got a PEN though.DURABLE is the brand.
How pathetic is that??
And that Tahirah insist i keep my money.
I was like "take larh take larh"...
Then finally i put inside her bag secretly.
YES!! =D
Then we walked around bugis FINDING the shop.
Well Tahirah has short term memory, i understand. =P
She sooooo gonna campak batu at me.
Found the shop and exchange her shirt.
After that headed back home.
Inside MRT we were like playing who should keep the pen.
Damn lame but yet funny.
Drop down at Tanah Merah.
Guess who we saw??
MRS ONG. "yeah!!"
haha.
Then send her home.
For certain reason i shall say....
"WOOOOHOOOO"
Then i do this action which is like the advertisment at RTM2.
This powder advertisment.
HAHA.
So sweet right??
I noe.
AHAHA!
Ok Farid is self praising.

And oh yeah...
Tahirah showed me this book which teaches u how to speak CAMBODIAN.
I mean WTH??
It was worse than DAYAK language.
Imagine im having difficulties saying MONDAY in cambodian.
Believe??BETTER!

Well i think this is it for today.
Im gonna bath and going to study at 10pm IF im not tired.
OP thanks for the countdown. =)
And sorry for today.
Everybody please have pleasant night and sleep well.
Take care everyone.
ILUSM MAKCIK!! =)

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 8:04 PM