Friday, November 24, 2006
Just came back from fetching her.Well i it was heart-pumping moment for me.I guess i got my reasons.I was so nervous and so scared to face her.In the first place i actually did not wanted to go,But i just tell myself anything happens..Keep my feelings to myself.Msg-ed Dary or so called update me on the situation.Until he called me and said she was sad.So yeah i decide to appear.AND THERE WAS I.The first thing she did was to chase after me and pinch my arms countless of time.I didnt expect that she would like react that way,Cause Susu told her about my insecure-ness.I mean from the way she react, i never want to imagine if i did go.Well i got 2 "special presents" from 2 people.Huifen present was in text though...."I hate you la!"Then from suhaila, A direct hit to my body by her handbag.Wonderful right the presents they gave me?I have such a Wonderful friends.In a way im very glad that she has came back.But i still have my insecure-ness.The 10 days period was not just an ordinary 10 days.To me its a test.Test of what??Test Of Trust!And you know what, I FAILED!.Yeah truthfully speaking i failed.Even now.HAIZ.My feelings is all jumble up till i dont noe what to feel.Sorry to be feeling this way.First i wanna say sorry to SUHAILAYes i did trouble you with all nuisance.And kinda lie to you about all this.So im really sorry about it.But in a way i wanna thank you for the things you said to me."Do not make harsh and stupid decision"I will remember that.If wasnt for that words i would certainly wouldnt be there today.Second person i wanna apologise to is HUIFEN.Yes im really sorry for making you sad and worried for me.You persuaded me not to go which i feel so bad.So im really sorry for all the trouble.Thanks for making the video about me.Somehow it touches my heart.I really appreciate it.Thank you so much!!Last but not least, the important person, TAHIRAH.Well i really sorry to be doing this to you.But today was very bad compare to 10 days ago.Like i said i cannot imagine how will you react if i really decide to go.Im sorry for thinking rubbish about the whole thing.But as far as it is over, i do still have this insecure feeling of mine.IF you do change heart, tell me and i will try and accept it.Once again im sorry for making you sad and trouble you just now.Hope you will ignore the insecure-ness in me aight.Today is someone-someone very special day.Well congratulation to the both of you & may it last.She gave me a Small Bicycle that she bought from Cambodia.Kembangan Place. =)Well Thank You So Much!Hope you like my gift too.HAIZ....Everybody take care alright.
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