Tuesday, November 14, 2006
This morning, somehow i dont now wat should i feel.Happy?? or Sad??Its kinda both.Yeah.Happy because firstly my suprised plan works.It turn out well and Tahirah was really happy to see me at the airport.Smiles was all on her face.I really glad i came.Farid=Yang istimewa(very special)=Unpredictable.Tahirah thinks im unpredictable.While i think Tahirah has a VERY GOOD INSTINCT,which does not seem to go wrong.Proud of her.Sad because seeing her leave just shattered my heart,eventhough it is just for 10 days.She keep asking me to send her nearer to the departure area.I did that, before i knew it, she checked in already.Wave goodbye whenever she looked at me.Smiles with hidden sadness which i can feel deep down inside her.Slowly she was not in sight.The feelings of seeing your love ones go is TERRIBLE.LIKE HELL!!Before she left, she leave me with 2 HEARTS.First was the VCD title HEART which she really wants me to watch.Well i already done so.Second was her true heart, i mean mentally.Because i somehow feels she is right here with me.Man...im feeling so speechless about it.No night call from her.Miss her saying:"Good night...Sweet dreams....sleep tight...Dont let the cat scratch you ok??Dont bully Faiz...Take care.And ILU."How can get through 10 days when a day seems so difficult for me?I shall not say about it anymore.Heart pain.Well just now i did meet up with Tahirah's mum and brother.Her brother know about Tahirah and me but i was kinda nervous.Want to end this.I miss her so much now. =(Thanks kak syida for your encouragement.
Am I Making Things Worse? ; 11:09 PM
