& You, I Saw You.

& i am.

[Muhd Farid]
-Wasted Youths.
-Messed Hair.
MERCU Private Sch.
29 April 1989.
Taurus.
Loved Tahirah
hits

& my friends.

ADILIN
AISYAH
ATIKAH
AYIEEN
CLARABELLE
ELISA
FARADELLA
HUIFEN
HUIYI
IVAN
IYLIEE
KAK SHIDA
KAREN
RABIATUL
SAMIRAH
SERENA
SHAZWANI
SHEIKHA
SYAZANA
TAHIRAH
XINROU
ZAFIRAH
ZAKI
ZULAIHA[baby]

& we reminisce

& we listen.

& we thank.

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Sunday, April 29, 2007

Basically, Happy 18th Birthday to ME.

History repeat itself.

In what way?Lets see.

29th April 2005

Was with Orange at that point of time.

And i remebered she started planing for a suprised for my birthday since March.

All sorts of things Su ling, Charissa and her asked me not to let me know about the suprised.

(At sportlink bedok)

Her:So which soccer boots should i buy for my brother?

Me:When is your brother birthday?

Her:May.(i believe it.)

Me:Ohh, i suggest you buy this one as blah blah blah,(explain to them why it is a good soccer boots to buy.)

(In school)

Charissa:Farid what kinda of food do you like in sch?

Me:HUH?!

Charissa:I'm doing a survey la.(once again i believe it.)

Me:Hmm...All sorts of pau la.

Charissa:Ok thank you.

Then on my birthday itself, Me and her went out.

Took Neoprints and settled a LJS for dinner.

Suddenly while i was eating, Su ling, Charissa, Hidayat pop up with a cute little cake with a candle.

and sang for me a birthday so
Damn suprised la.

Then they gave me a box which is wrapped up.

They asked me open it, so i did.

Then...

This is what i get.

I was speechless at that point of time.

Then yeah tears just start to flow as i say thank you to all of them.

Tears of happiness which i cant hold back.

Their cards.

Thank you to Jean, Charissa, Su Ling, Kak Shida, Luthfi, Isa, Ivan, Shafiq T., Syafiq S., Yusri, Benjamin, Kou Lim, Farhan and Hidayat for your contribution.

And thank you to Her, for making 29th April 2005 a memorable day for me.

Two years later.......

29th April 2007,

Tahirah, asked me out the day before.

But then suddenly she cant make it.

Was upset about it.

But i thought it would be alright.

End up going out with Kaya.

Met her at bedok interchange,

Wasnt feeling good, so i let her bring me where she want to go for our lunch.

Kaya:Lets go Pasir Ris and eat but not SAKURA

Me:Alright, anything.

Kaya: Eh, how bout we go Banquet Simei and eat?

Me:Im fine with anything.

Kaya:Alright.

Reached semei, and was making our way up to Banquet,

when suddenly i say lets eat at SAKURA or HANS RIVER?

But kaya disagree cause she said it was damn expensive.

Then suddenly she entered HANS RIVER.

I was suprised to see Isa, Sheikha, and Rabiatul.

So were they.

Then i was searching if Tahirah was there.

I never see her and disappointment.

But then i saw her.

Was really happy! =)

But the suprised was not supposed to be at the place we take our food.

It was suppose to be at the table, everyone seated, waiting for my arrival.

I think la.

But somehow it was backfired.

Sat down at the far end of the place.

Tahirah bought me a cute cake with a candle on it.

They sang happy birthday to me.

After that we dig in with the food.

Sat for several hours and we were stuffed.

Went to popular bought C. humanities guide book.

So decide to head home after that.

Send Tahirah home.

Well I wanna say thank you so much to Tahirah, Sheikha, Suhaila, Rabiatul and Isa for coming and celebrate my birthday.

Thank you all for making 28th April 2007 a enjoyable day for me.

Im sorry for being so quiet.

Thank you Tahirah for the cute cake and the treat alright.

I appreciate it.

I love you lots.

Thank you Ameera and Adilin for the comments at Friendster.

Thank you Aisyah. Atiqah, Elisa, Tahirah and Jean for the the wishes.

Really, Thank you so much.

Sheikha.Rabiatul.Isa.

Blowing the candle.

Candid Session

Steaming In The Pot.

She's disturbing me eating.

LOVED
Are you looking at the camera?

Hope you have good memories with this song.

Im sure you will.

I really have to apologise to you,

Im really not the past.

Sorry.

Emo-ing with Elisa?

Soccer match with the boys?

Bye.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 10:00 AM

Saturday, April 28, 2007

Today, maybe i made a record,
I cried inside the lift after sending Tahirah home.
HAIZ.
I dont noe what these tears are for.
But i cry really badly that i have to cover my face from letting anyone seeing it.
I will just update tml.
I just wanna be really happy.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 8:51 PM

Friday, April 27, 2007

You still relate to your past dont you?

Now, sometimes its totally sucks to be like this.

29 april not my birthday uh.

sorry uh wrong date.

i forget.

BYE!

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 9:11 PM

Thursday, April 26, 2007

Today had to go sch early.
Cause i had to do Spring Cleaning.
WTH.
But it was better than i expected.
I and Luthfi vacuumed two rooms and we both were dismissed.
One word for us both: SKILLED!
HAHA!
Went to Geylang Market for lunch.
Ate Fried Rice Thai with Teh.
=)) Yummy-ness.

Then went back to MERCU.
Class was alright and peaceful not until....
FARADELLA came!!!!!
So damn noisy can!

"Farid, you better change your song if not im not going to talk to you!"

Hahaha!
Just shut up!
Dont talk, dont talk lor.
And cant deny, you're fringging irritating, noisy and LOUD today.
Zipped it ok.
LOL.

Fetched Tahirah today.
=)))
I irritate her in a funny way today.
Wohohoho.
Sorry girl.
Yeah u can kill with that stone i pick up.
LOL.

Ok enough,
Wanna do my maths and read books after that.
Bye!!!!

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 9:56 PM

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

Had sch today.
Starts at 9am, ends at 11am.
After that went home.
Played computer till 2pm.
After that fetched Faiz from sch.

Came back.
Felt so damn fringging bored.
Somehow i have no motivation to study.
Was thinking what to do.
I was left with one last choice,
Go down for MERCU soccer.

So yeah, which i did.
I guess today is the day i get along well with Mats and Minahs.
Yeah sounds pathetic for a guy who detesed them.
But hey, they look friendlier than it seems.
One of them simply full nonsense but very funny.
LOL.
There's three girls there,
Aisyah, Maisarah and a girl with nickname Zizi.
Cheerleaders i should say.
Maisarah was being too nice to me.

"Farid dah makan?", I said no.
"Farid lapar?", I said tak sangat.
"Farid nak air?" i said no.
"Farid nak biskot?" i said no but den..
"Farid semua tak nak?" i said uh ok la ok la den take one biscuit.

I was like saying, too nice for a girl like you.
Wohohoho.

At 6.30pm, went home.
Talk to Niza, not a mat.
About lotsa stuff.
Mrt-ed with him to Tamp since he is also a Tampinesian.
Then we went our seperate ways.
Reached home at 8pm.

Alright, thats all.
Take care all.
Farid is sure now.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 9:56 PM

This might get DIRTY!
OMG!Funny CAN!

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 1:41 PM

This hoedown is VERY FUNNY!!
HAHA!

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 1:22 PM

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Finally i get to meet Tahirah.
Yay!
So HAPPY can!!
Went to fetched from tuition.
Walked the normal route.
Today she damn bad.
=(
She left me to walk alone for almost "10KM".
Haha!
Very bad gf.
Haiyaa...
LOL.

Today wait for the bus very long lei..
After waiting for almost half and hour or so,
The lucky bus number 12 came.
Inside the bus, Tahirah teach me to play to game.
Haha!
The thumb game and the tap-tap game.
Kinda childish but fun la.
=))
Thank you Tahirah.
Send her home.
I went home.
=))

I guess, people will not want to go out on 29 April to accompany me on my birthday.
Cause there's Dance Floor Grand Finals.
So i assume people will rather watch that show.
Haiyaaa.
But hey, i have no worries,
I shall just think of something fun to do on my birthday.
=))

Alright thats all.
Love you Tahirah. =)

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 9:35 PM

Monday, April 23, 2007

Another funny one.
HAHA!

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 5:21 PM

Well i just reached home.
Released at 11am.
Came home at this time.
Well after sch, Me. Luthfi and Faradella went to bedok library.
OMG!
We had a blasting fun la.
Haha!
Kept laughing non-stop.
Me and Luthfi laugh at Faradella because her reaction is very funny la can.
She can talk to herself and laugh at her own jokes.

We ate LJS after that.
Another non- stop laughing session.
HAHA!
Damn fun.
And got to know Faradella bf is my primary sch friend and Luthfi know him also through sepak takraw.
What a small world.
Wow!
Cant wait for this coming thursday for another enjoyable laughing session.
HAHA!
=))

I realised that i have not meet Tahirah for almost 2 weeks now.
That is long ok!
Haiz.How sad.
I miss her badly,
Even though we still talk at night.
Now she's having Mid-Year.
(Haha!Padan Muka.LOL.=))
Hope she will do well.Unlike..
She-Know-Who.
=))
Take care.
See you soon. =))
ILU.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 2:45 PM

Friday, April 20, 2007

Today had Maths.
It was fine.
Felt so sleepy and tired inside class
cause i slept at 2am yesterday night.
Still tired though.

Have some maths homework to do.
YAY!
When for friday prayers,
Reached home and off to a short nap.

Then, did nothing but on the comp.
Felt so bored.
Intend to go for a run but kinda 50-50 about it.

Tahirah must be having so much fun by now.

Nothing to blog anymore.

Oh maybe there's one thing,
Since my birthday is coming,
all i want is to be DAMN HAPPY on that day,
and maybe someone or anyone who im close to can be with me at the Fountain of Wealth or somewhere nice.
=))

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 6:11 PM

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Went out of house at 12pm.
Went to POPULAR to get the Maths Assesment book that i wanted so much.
After that mrt-ed to Eunos to meet Luthfi.
Settled down at the nearest coffe shop to have our lunch.
By the time we finished eating, it was already 1400hr.

So made our way to MERCU.
Today im glad that it was mats-and-minah free.
Which means half of the class only attended English class.
Couldnt be happier.

Today lesson was rather fun and enjoying.
=D
We were group according to our English marks ranged.
Btw i got 18/30 for the test.
Not too disappointed by it.
Can still do better for next test.
Alright back to today,
My group name is SALADIN.
What a name.
I keep making fun of my own group name.
SARDINE, AYAM BRAND.
WTH.

Well my group had the fun people.
And i think it is the lively group.
Cause we cant stop making lame, sacarstic and hillarious jokes.
Funny!!
Especially that Farahdila.
=))))
Haha!
We argue about certain things in a funny way for the assignment that was given to our group.
Without realising it, it was already time for us to go home.
Awww...just when we were having so much fun.

After that went straight to the Eunos mrt station with Luthfi and Eiryan.
Waited for the train,
Then suddenly saw Farahdila.
When we saw each other, first thing we do is laugh.
Hahaha!
How irony, we laugh when we were quite a distance away.
Damn funny.
Even inside the freaking mrt la can...
I was looking at random things and people inside the mrt when i saw a girl laughing.
Hahaha!!!So damn merepek you noe.

Drop at bedok, den off to Macdonald.
Studied there with Luthfi from 5.30pm till 7pm.
168-ed home.

Reach home at 7.30pm.
Bathed.
Then study again.
From 8pm till 10pm.

Now here i am.
Thats all for today.

Something to look forward to now for english and c. humanities class.
HAHA!

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 10:23 PM

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Today Combined Humans class was ok.
First person i saw, that Atikah.
Haiz.
Well today had Geography test which caught me by suprised since i did not come last week.
But the test was relatively fine.
Do-able.
Still feeling sick.

And I got to know Tahirah didnt come sch today.
She is sick.
Haiz.
Tahirah...
Hope your getting better alright.
Dont forget to take your medicine.
Take care ok.

I miss you.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 8:17 PM

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Wasnt feeling too good this particular day.
As if something was damn wrong or something felt really different.
And i know its not going to be the same.
Well maybe, true enough it wont be the same.

Am i just paranoid or my instinct is trying warn me??
I dont know what am i feeling right now.
Confused.

Hey, to someone,
You really dont have to make me so insecure by writting
"that person" and "this person".
Haiz.
Sorry im not the past.

Take care.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 12:23 PM

Friday, April 13, 2007

Anyone got this song plus the songs "Love song for the emotionally wounded" and "Programme"?

Btw love this song. =))

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 6:49 PM

Thursday, April 12, 2007

ONLY FOR TAHIRAH.

No moment

Will be more true

Than the moment

I look at you.

Its 120407 today, which means its OUR 4 MONTHSARY!!!

YEAH!

Alright this is what i wanna say,

First and for most, HAPPY 4 MONTHSARY TO YOU.

=))

Well thank you so much for everything.

And i mean everything.

For the good times and being there for me.

Plus im sorry if there's time i hurt your feelings in anyway.

Forgive me??

Comfirm No, im a bad guy right compare to Faiz.

HAHA!

Biased girl.

But sincerely, Im sorry.

Neverless, im really glad to have you.

And you mean so much to me.

Most importantly,

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU LOVE ME !!

And thats final.Fullstop.

*Bluek*

Haha.

Lets stay strong and happy alright.

Alright.

Take care Tahirah.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 7:10 AM

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

HAIZ.
Im sorry, im not him.
......

Take care.
I love you more than you love me.
Always will.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 4:43 PM

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Actually there's alot of things i wanna let out here.
But since im listening to sad song right now,
my words all seems to be mixed up and cant make up what i wanted to say.
Haiz.

Alright,
Just now went to study at Tampines Library with Saiful.
Studied Maths.
Ate Mcflurry.
After that we went to POPULAR to get stuff.
Then, go home.

Going to study again tml with Saiful.

Have fun.
And take care.
=)
Haiz.
ILU.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 11:17 PM

I did not go to sch today.
Try to wake but the pain at my knee is killing me.
Blue-black mark is there.
I can hardly walk.
Even if i try to walk, it will look so handicap.

Well i guess after this,
I think i wont be seeing you any sooner this week.
Haiz.
Yeah i dont mind.
Cause you're busy with sch activities.
Understandable.
Just take care of yourself.

Well maybe i want to go out to study later.
Anyone wanna come??

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 9:46 AM

Monday, April 09, 2007

Alright basically we lost.
Haiz.
Score 2-1.
I play like shit!
But just forget about it la.

Thanks to those who have supported me and my team.
I know its like a disappointment to me.
And Tahirah,
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR CHEERING FOR ME.
EVENTHOUGH I CANT HEAR.
SORRY.
But hey, about me being biased,
it was all not serious.
It is really only a joke.
Just to cheer myself up.
Yeah, its ok that you're cheering for others too.
Thanks.
Appreciate it.

Im tired.
Bye.

I love you more than you love me.
=))

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 9:22 PM

Sunday, April 08, 2007

OMG.
Tomorrow is the the day i have been waiting for since Sec 4.
The moment will come tml.
Yesssaaaahh!!!!

For bedok view student,
If you got free time after sch tml,
Please come down and watch the match.
Btw its Ex BV vs BV 'B' Boys.
At 4pm.

And im go geared up for the match.
Yes.
I have been watching Cristiano Ronaldo video countless of times.
Is not i admire him or what, (and im straight so dont worry.)
I been looking at his skills.
Those speedy step over, the running and all.
And i somehow make a new skill for myself.
HAHA!
Very simple skill.
Cant wait to try it tml.

Enjoy the video.
=D

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 2:59 PM

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Am I Making Things Worse? ; 2:55 PM

Friday, April 06, 2007

Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's
Not enough
But when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'Cause you're only almost here

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 3:11 PM

Currently feeling damn sad.
And yeah, i guessed history repeat itself.
Haiz.
Bloody shit.
Haiz.
Still remember what happened back then.
But now, it happens again.

Well i gone through once,
Just one more time, i will endure this.
Haiz.
No worries, i'll keep holding on.
I will.

I just hope you're feeling some sort better.
Which is unlikely.
Take care.
ILUSM.

No mood.No mood.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 2:38 PM

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Im basically damn worried about Tahirah now.
Till i cant sleep.
Really, i just feel so restless.

Tahirah,
Are you ok??
Is it got to do about just now??
Please give me a call ASAP alright.
Haiz.

Take care girl.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 11:53 PM

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

Just glad you're happy,
while.......
nah, nvm, nothing.

Im so not in good mood.
I dont want to be bothered.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 9:52 PM

It seems everyday is a suprising day for me.
Yesterday got a letter from Republic Poly.
At first thought, it was the usual letter stating that my application was not successful.
But hey NO!
They say that i got a place in Republic Poly taking Diploma in Micro And Nanotechnology.
Just WTH.

Considering my options.
But i guess i made up my mind,
Im still going for MERCU classes instead of going Republic Poly.
Cause im not intersted in RP and the course.

And today maths class was somehow good to me.
The teacher is way better than BVSS Maths teachers.
He teach us how to memorize certain formulas in a very intersting manner.
And it is very effective.
Im starting to love maths.
LOL.

On the darker note for today,
Im not really in a good mood today.
Rather saddens me too.
Well, haiz, anything.

Take care everyone.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 1:26 PM

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Class ended at 1pm today.
Today was fun during lesson.
Alot of laughter.
Nuisance from the mats and with everyone crapping,
just makes me feel kinda comfortable there.

Today i got 2 suprising things to share with.

Alright first,
There is a K14 girl inside my class.
Her name is Atikah.

Next is, there's this girl who look like Adilin,
but only different, with chubby cheeks,
who actually share the same birthdate as me.
Ya, like O M G!
I finally found a person who actually born on the same date as me.
Haha!
29th April 1989!!!!!!
I never asked her name when she asked for mine.
Once again, cant be bothered that much.

Look forward for tml lesson.

Well Tahirah is still the best!!!
=D
ILU.

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 2:08 PM

Monday, April 02, 2007

Im really inspired by this episode of Naruto.
If it's really my fate not ot enter poly this year,
Im going to work hard and change my fate this year.
Dont assumed you know everything!
Just watch me.
Rasengan!!!

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 8:33 PM

Well i have started reading books,
an attempt to really improve my english.
Is not that i get a really bad grade for it,
C5 sounds reasonable for me,
but of course i wanna do better.

Well im content about my MERCU timetable.
And school wasnt that bad today,
Despite the fact that there's a handful of Mats and Minahs
Sorry to say, IM AINT YOUR FAN!
Class ended at 11am.
Had lunch with Luthfi and went home.

Had constantly been reading this current book,
Connections by Sheila O'Flanagan.
A good book.

There's this section which really describe about my insecurities.
Is just that it is the other way round for me.
"He might have loved having me around, but he really wanted to have Monica."
[Monica is HE wife but have passed away.]

Am I Making Things Worse? ; 8:04 PM